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My life in stasis.

Lots of nothing going on, and lots of nowhere to go.

Right now, a lot of things in my life are in a state of suspension. Things are awaiting approval, on hold, currently in review, and generally just stuck. It's a state I'm very used to being in, but more so lately.

We're on month seven, seven, of a single employment process, which is frankly fucking ridiculous. I just...sit here, with my thumbs up my ass, waiting for the people I'm trying to get this job with to pull their own thumbs out. It's frustrating to say the least.

A plus point in my day to day is an abundance of games I currently am going through, either first time or replaying, which takes off a little of the edge. And I've been writing a little more frequently, which is always a plus.

But there's just too much happening right now that I can't do anything about, and it's keeping me from achieving the stability I need to be secure in my life. And it's gone on for so long that it's even starting to make me paranoid, which, what even? Paranoid requires a level of caring I am not generally equipped for, so I'm just sitting there going 'hold up, what the fuck'.

I never thought I'd say this, but I need for distractions. At this rate, by the time I finally am stable, I'm gonna need therapy just to process it.

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